Baby Bump: {20 Weeks}

Yay! We're officially at the halfway mark, which is both exciting and very, very scary at the same time. I've been told that you have no idea just how completely your life will change after your baby arrives until he (or she) does, but that's the least of my concerns. Dirty nappies, sleepless nights, having to pack your entire house and the kitchen sink into your car before you leave the house to go grocery shopping? Bring it. My biggest worry these days is how I'm going to feel having little Bean out there, in the big, scary world, and not being able to protect him every minute of every day.

I love the fact that little Bean is safely ensconced in his own protective little bubble and that I can take him everywhere - I have no choice, and I wouldn't have it any other way! My own safety has become so much more important over these past few weeks, mainly because I know that if something were to happen to me, it could potentially have severe effects on my little baby. That's a big cross to bear and I feel a huge sense of responsibility, but what terrifies me even more than that, is how I'll cope once he's born and I can't be with him or take him with me everywhere I go. I've always been a bit of a worrier, but it seems that this having a baby thing is bringing out the worst in me!

So for the moment, although I'm dying to meet the little guy, I'm also very content knowing that he's safely cocooned inside of me (probably the most protected he'll ever be!) and enjoying every second of my pregnancy. I don't want to wish any part of this away, because I know that I'll never get the chance to be this close to my little boy ever again. Grow strong, little Bean! (And you can kick me as much as you want to - I love every little punch you throw my way, and despite what your dad says, I don't think I'll ever tire of those little movements!)